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So you are in a 4 year downward spiral? Whose fault is it?
Maybe you need a four leaf clover! Get a wish bone! Wish upon a star! Toss a coin in a wishing well! Toss salt over your left shoulder.
There's all kinds of things people do to bring them luck. Doing any of these things to secure your income or your future is not wise. Just as blaming PBO for you still been unemployed after 4 years is not wise. Being jobless is not your fault and it is definitely not PBO's fault, but it is your problem. A problem only for the man in the mirror. Go out! Find a job! Just as you have done most your your adult life. Find a job, or blame yourself!
It's good to talk.