Sticks Stones and Stems: the miseducation of I N I

In order to teach, serve and lead, I imagine... one must be a good student, servant and follower.  But who and what do we look to for wisdom and are we 'following' to remain and just become 'followers'?  My hope here is not to be able to graciously and righteously impart some knowledge and even gain some wisdom on how we can find goodness within each of us FIRST to heal and grow collectively.  My personal experiences and journey that included a heavy lean on cannabis for balance and what was 'normalcy' has led me to here...today where I'm aware of what my own personal weaknesses are in wellness and disease.  Its an ongoing journey of living a life of celibacy and abstaining from over indulging in substances like alcohol which once became far too much of a thing affecting relationships and my health.  Understanding is divine.  Compassion and empathy, and even disdain for the American healthcare system which finds our loved ones in need of prescribed medications or treatments that create more harm than healing.  Cost is over the top and our prison systems are saturated with indivuals charged with doing time, tax dollars spent to punish rather than rehabilitate and educate.  It's not rocket science.  Not promoting drug addiction or encouraging bad habits, more than that... taking off the mask and stigma associated with pre-judging and casting out the true demonic forces of the miseducation of society.  Will you come?  Is there one?  Take off your ego, please.  No judging allowed.