Karma doesn’t Always Come

Happy Summer y'all! Auntie took a little break to break down in peace and tequila. I lost a long time friend to cancer. Trigger. Traveled to my family home in Pittsburgh. Trigger. Forgot that I would have  celebrated my 18th wedding anniversary. Trigger. Celebrated large victories in business and my personal life. Lost a lot of my memory and hair. Trigger. Ceased therapy once again because the therapist moved. Trigger. Traveled and received company from out of town. Went public with a relationship. Trigger. 
When I speak on triggers there isn't always a negative reaction to that trigger. Sometimes the body acknowledged the trigger before your brain does. Your triggers are the deciding factor in your healing. How you react when faced with a situation you have been in before says a lot about your evolution. Your ability to decide how we gone go about this is what determines a good or bad day. During all this time, contrary to belief, I didn't have time to think about who did what on what day and why. You're simply a non MF factor. Grown folks have more to do in a day than to wish bad on MFs that are already doing bad and will eternally be raggedy. 
Karma goes both ways. It's a gift. When someone receives their karma it's the universe wiping a slate clean. Karma for evil is repaid and that person is now alleviated from the guilt or shame. This person gets a second chance to make things right going forward. Karma for good deeds works the same. Now that I'm rewarded for my deed it allows me another opportunity to do good for somebody else. It's ALL reciprocal. 
Auntie is truly not with the shits. Why would I wish karma on you when you did me filthy if I can just sit back and watch you suffer without a second chance? Y'all are too forgiving and too invested in people who were never invested in you. Let's do better.