Tell the Truth Tuesday: S.A.D.

We the North are experiencing our frigid temps already. Although we don't have much snow, we are all still feeling the blues. My alcoholism has flared up again. Exes crawling out the woodwork...LITERALLY ....I blame Mercury retrograde. My energy is low. Sex drive is high. Tolerance is low. My clap backs are at an all-time high. Having S.A.D. or as we call it "seasonal associative disorder" looks different on everyone. I literally can barely muster the nerve to even go to the gym. I have no affect. I have already had my nervous breakdown for the year. Lets see how the next two months treats me. I know we are supposed to be resting and building. I was just reading how sometimes the need to be busy all the time is attributed to trauma. If I stop for one second will this all fall apart? I ask myself this every week.