Welcome Author Nidhi Kaur To The NTUNED Mix-Up

A physical, mental and emotional abuse survivor. I had been in a physically violent relationship for years and never knew that I could even survive or come out of it. I believed in God but my faith wasn’t strong enough to help me come out of the trauma that I was facing, I even tried to end my life a couple of times. But stopping the violence was easy. I just had to say STOP at my loudest voice finally one day and know that I did not deserve it. I finally moved out of that relationship.Fixing myself after moving out of the trauma was not easy either. Finding blame in others and self pity was not helping at all and I spent years blaming God for it. There were many other reasons that I blamed God for, like giving me a brother who is deaf and dumb and I had felt his pain very deeply in my soul during early years of my childhood.

What helped then? What made me so strong? Love and faith restored after a magical moment that happened two years ago. A messenger from God appeared and told me that He loved me. “God loved me,” I had been wanting to know this and hear this for years. I looked at my present moment and felt immense peace. What caused so much serenity in my life? What had I been doing to move from a life of distress to a life of happiness, joy and miracles? To express my gratitude and thankfulness I started writing poetry. I used to write poetry as a young child but had somehow lost connection with it. But I got back to it and realized that I was deeply in love with writing.