Here is the solution to overcoming self rejection; self hate and self shame/self guilt
SEX IN THE BRAIN INSTEAD OF SEX ON THE BRAIN
Brain Orgasm' Experiencing the "brain orgasm" involves feeling the tingling sensation that starts at the crown of the head and spreads down the body. An overall calmness and relaxation of the body will then follow. The study, published in the journal PLOS One on June 20, found that ASMR decreases the heart rate.
ASMR is best described as a physical sensation of tingling that usually begins in the scalp and moves down through the spine and sometimes to the limbs. It's a pleasurable feeling that many would call relaxing. ... Certain sounds may triggerASMR, like crackling fire, rustling paper, white noise, running water, etc.