My Life then and now!

Today I am going to talk a little about myself and how I came around to be the woman that I am today.  My life started in 1948.  At the age of three my birth father passed away and my mother married my now dad who back then adopted my older sister and myself.  There are many parts of my younger days that I don't remember - maybe I've blocked them out.....in the meanwhile two other brothers and a baby sister came around. Life seemed fairly "normal" until I was about 15....we had moved from Southern California to Dayton Ohio because my dad had a new job..O!  This is the other thing...I could never figure out why my mother would be ironing my dad's underwear at 3 o'clock in the morning and then watering our front lawn at 11 p.m.  I found out later on that she was hooked on diet pills....that was her thing and at 15 she kindly told me that it looked like I was gaining some weight (I wasn't) and "here, honey - take this pill.  It will help you"...trusting my mom I took the pill and loved it SO much that I asked her for another one the next day....little did I know this was the beginning of my addiction to everything!  I went on a pill rampage at 18 - water pills - then diet pills - I was really a pill head.....had to stay thin or I would never find a man - (my mom told me).....this was the late  60's early 70's.....hippie nation!  everything was in!  I was into uppers, downers, sidewinders anyway but straight, ok?  Then it was the pot and then the psychedelics - for three years straight - every day - I was over the edge one might say....but so was everyone else - through 4 failed marriages and hundreds of men I crashed one day.  I was probably 50 yrs old.....my then husband had been popped on a UA while we were truck driving - we longhauled for some years - and so he couldn't drive -