Life's Issues with Lloyd Rosen

Life's Issues with Lloyd Rosen with his guest Chuck Koehler

Negative, False Core Schemas That Caused 35 Years of Intense Suffering At an early age, because of my dad's, mom's, and stepdad's inabilities to meet my physical and emotional needs as a baby and young child, I begin developing cognitive schemas about myself, others, and the world that had caused severe depression, isolation, OCD, anxiety, panic attacks, social phobia, etc. over the last 35 years. I developed false beliefs that I was unlovable, worthless, defective, a mistake, "not enough", a freak of nature, that men and women can't be trusted or depended upon, people aren't safe, the world isn't safe, people will only abandon me, reject me, yell at me, ignore me, want something from me, take advantage of me, that I can't allow myself to get close to anyone because it is too painful (because we moved all of the time, so I had to leave schools), and that I will not be supported or cared for by GOD, the world, and other people. So, as I went through life with these core schemas intake the universe kept providing me with opportunities ("triggers") to heal my earlier suppressed emotional pain and resulting core beliefs by being able to question my false thoughts and feeling my suppressed emotional pain instead of numbing stuffing, or distracting myself from uncomfortable emotions. As I endured more-and-more neglect, abuse, and trauma in my family, at the hands of a bully, living with a tooth deformity, and 15 years of chronic myofascial pain and severe isolation, my core beliefs and thoughts about myself and others became more solidified in my mind like they were the "Truth", like they were one of the commandments or a law or a fact.