HOW I'M TRYING TO HEAL FROM THE BROKEN HEART AND PAIN OF BETRAYAL FROM JULIE

MY FRIENDS AND BRETHREN I HAVE OFTEN SPOKEN ON THIS SHOW IN A VERY "STRAIGHTFORWARD" MANNER AND IN A "HEART TO HEART" APPROACH AND TODAY I JUST WANT TO DO THAT AS WHEN I'VE DONE THE OPEN MIKE SESSIONS BEFORE!

I WANT TO SHARE WITH YOU TODAY JUST EXACTLY HOW I DEAL ON A DAILY BASIS WITH THIS "PAIN" AND AGONY THIS "PASSION" AND VIA CRUCIS I GO THRU EVERY DAY AS I LIKE MY SAVIOUR GET TO TAKE HIS CROSS AND CARRY IT BEARING ALL THE SHAME AND THE WOUNDS OF A LOVE GONE WRONG AND PERVERSELY WICKED AGAINST ME! THE "HEART RENDING" AGONIZING PAIN OF BETRAYAL AND TREACHERY FROM SOMEONE WHOM I THOUGHT HAD GENUINE LOVE FOR ME AND TRULY WANTED TO BE MY MATE!

I'M GOING TO FILL YOU IN ON HOW EXACTLY I HAVE DONE THIS EVER SINCE I FOUND OUT THE WHOLE TRUTH AND NOTHING BUT THE TRUTH CONCERNING JULIE! I WILL BE CANDID, I WILL BE SINCERE AND VERY FROWARD INDEED! BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY I WILL BE "TRUE" FIRST TO MYSELF THEN TO GOD AND TO YOU ALL! I'M NOT PERFECT AND I UNDERSTAND SOME OF THIS I BROUGHT UPON MYSELF FOR ALWAYS "LEANING TO MY OWN UNDERSTANDING" INSTEAD OF FOLLOWING GOD'S WILL! I FELL IN LOVE WITH A GIRL WAY BACK IN 2007 AND WAS SO ENRAPTURED BY HER LOOKS AND HER FLESH THAT I FORGOT TO READ HER HEART AND TRUE INTENTIONS IN THE PROCESS AND I GOT BURNED AND NOW MY LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME BECAUSE OF HER!

I'M ALREADY LIVING THE PUNISHMENT AND TORMENT FOR MY SINS AND MY TRANSGRESSIONS EACH DAY IN MY FLESH FOR WHAT I'VE DONE IN THE PAST: "DO UNTO OTHERS AND IT SHALL BE DONE UNTO YOU" THE BUIBLE SAYS AND YES GOD WILL FORGIVE YOU BUT YOU STILL MUST PAY THE CONSEQUENCES OF SIN IT'S WHAT OCCULTISTS CALL "KARMA" IT'S GOD'S GOLDEN RULE AT WORK!

MY FRIENDS AND BRETHREN WHEN I MET JULIE I THOUGHT I HAD FOUND HEAVEN ON EARHT AND LIFE AFTER THAT HAS BECOME A "LIVNG HELL"! I LOVE HER AND ALWAYS WILL WITH ALL MY HEART!