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Prison of the mind
Hosted by Craig Sicilia
We humans live a life that is part reality but imagination, what are minds tell us it is, so it is no surprise after a abi/tbi as we try to rehabilitate toward what society says is typical, when we fall short of these measurements set for us we start using these as bricks and mortar building the ultimate prison in our minds. A prison so dark and vast that we easily get lost inside these self-built walls. Trying to find a way around, over and under only to find it unescapable. Were too busy building our why’s and how comes. When we should be thinking why not. We need to change doubt into believe focusing on what we have and can do rather than what we don’t have and cannot do. When we can move beyond the prisons of our mind we can turn cannot do’s into done’s.
Our Minds our powerful processors waiting for information and what we believe becomes the software that determine how we process and perceive all this information. Our believes get challenged and disproven most build stronger walls but it is possible to escape this prison, this solitary confinement that we have sentenced ourselves to. And we may visit our prisons often but in time those visits can be less and maybe we can break the confinements of our minds. Building a truly new individual the one you’re destined to be not the one programed with boundaries set by your own mind.
Share your prison and how you broke or have periods of when you break free, the feeling the process lets us break this jail of the mind together and change our world.
Hosted by, Craig Sicilia
Come take a walk on the beach on the pacific ocean, live from the BEST (Brain Energy Support Team) TBI Camp at Dashpoint on the pacific ocean. I will gather some survivors who want to chat at camp and together with our listeners will take a walk on the beach.
Finding our happy place is not easy, but we must try and what a better way than talking about the beautiful world around us, live on location from the pacific ocean see or hear you there
He we go through life trying to make it day to day sometimes, and people look at us as broke, needing repair or superglue. Because for us to succeed our lives look much differently to others many times, and people have a hard time envissioning any struggles we might encounter. And there are times where I buy into the percetion of others and feel less than, or incomplete even BROKEN but i am not broke, I am me, and am learning to accept this uninvited stranger that has become me.
On the flip side on my more challenging days you got to love those well i couldn't tell by looking at ya that you have challenges (i just think to my self) no shit!!! I use to start drulling and asking if that helps them vissualize my problems, not sure what they vissualized but it stopped that.
Our biggest challenge is now having others embrace the new us, the new me, finding those relationships that make life worth living, finding that peace that only can come from the inside of each of us. But as the old saying says how can we feel great hope and love if we never felt great pain and loss. I tell you what folks judging by the pain and struggles I am instore for something incredable and am ready for it to. Lets make our lifes something we love something we can live with and say this is good.
The Chosen One’s
As a new fiscal year launched with the 2014 Brain Injury Camping Experience ending a year I questions why I do these things, what good is it? What does it all mean? Why me Lord or Universe. Why should one person have to experience so much bad, it’s not fair. Ever since I was 3 or 4 years old I knew I was chosen all the time being beat by foster parents who the beatings are the only things I can remember of them. Promises made to exploit my talents. And now living with emotions that come from the depths of my soul I don’t think I can do what is programed from the universe pushing the very essences and fabric of who I am. It’s an essences so powerful there are other forces doing everything in their power to stop it. I use to think I was destined to be the leader of this as a young child I have seen wars with more soldiers, tanks, plains than ever imagined in Hollywood. I know now I am not this leader and am in awe of the leaders I have been blessed to meet, I think I am the vessel who was given the opportunity to create the environment where they can meet I am a soldier of what is to come. As I am to the point of I can’t take no more the universe gives me what I needed to learn once again.
But it feels like the last lesson in a long journey leading to something new. The Last 5 years of camping experiences have been part of it. What’s weird the experiences were out of sequence in my life but not in others’ lives. But it all ties together, the universe has went into a new age and we the people with disabilities are the chosen not the misfit’s society has labeled us with. Look around things are in motion of great change and great challenges and have been for decades if not centuries. I do not know how all the pieces fit together but the brain events many of us disrupt the plan
A TIME FOR REFLECTION
Just finished up our most popular event we do, hoopfest yesterday, and today makes the official end of our fiscal year but we have been broke for a couple months, and many of the popular things dont really get much money. But here we go to our 7th brain injury camp, which this year my radar stops
This last year i tracked what we do and the cost verses funding sources but this time I am factoring in the personal cost on me. The last 6 months of last fiscal year its been 7 days a week 10 to 15 hour days, all which i do to myself, emails (tens of thousands of emails each month) and phones are not handled it comes down to doing the physical work, making sure groups go off, I have spent a couple of years mentoring a group of very capiple men and woman who will take over support groups officially tomorrow (THE 5) i PLan on calling them into the show tonight they dont know it ill post this on their facebook walls and hour before
Many other projects I have put much effort into self sustaining leadership, people who can do it!!! (Im calling them into the show too) i hope.
I have been finalizing tasks and evaluating everything for the last 43 days and am now in reflective mode, evaluating where i fit, evaluating any service that cannot be sustained or that is sustained poorly letting it fail.
Doing my first ever personaal budget for this next fiscal year, being real with the efforts and as a person with a disability giving a far days work for any wages through grants and not straining me and my family trying to fix the world,
The biggest thing is i am eliminating myself on anything politacal, Im done I've lost friends over it, see the hurt and frustration on survivors really trying to change their circumstances in live only to find out their an industry. And the fact that survivors can't get along either, hopeles
Didn't some long lost realitive tell you it's not polite to throw sand into someones face, Now you have gone and done it what do you have to say for yourself, see how tghe other side does or dosent do it you deside what it is. Wtill trying to figure it all out my self.
Coming This Fall, What a Stupid Law that is
covering the worlds most rediculous laws on record and those effected by them. Presented only as someone with a brain injury could.....
And Featuring the annics of the fact or smack duo
It's been about a year since the organization grew, it grew so much it consumed me in every way, more groups than possible, more out reach hoping that everyone would be able to find a voice or ear. I had this weird vision that their could be a great unity of survivors, I saw this great potential for survivors. As we grew I disapeared, it happened so quick their was so much need. But for the need and the good there would be like dragons people who only destroyed and went after people, it fed them some how, then there is the political areana their as out of control as survivors that;s its own part of us, there is big money in brain injury..
I am really looking forward to camp, after camp i have to put things in perspective, i have litterally let everything go in this quest a quest that many don't want one that maybe i am tired of fighting, i have not really had contact with reality for a year I have been so busy, busy putting into place my life now, three priorities 1. get out of the poverty bracket 2. Do things for me 3. follow the path that will be infront of me.
I know the universe has some warped thing in store for me, now its time to explore that, finding that place where what i have to offer will make me a living. Building my new life one that fulfills my dreams and my childerns. What that is I don't know but i know it's coming now, believing in me, i just need to keep my mind open because it might not even be in this field what i do know dont offer enough value to sustain my family so that tells me something, tonight explore do we expire or what
New Year Now What
Hosted by Craig Sicilia
It is now a new year does that mean anything to anyone, does it mean any thing to me, should it mean anything, I am going to share what it means to me and others around me and what it can mean, what it might mean or maybe what it should mean to some. Let us share our hopes, dreams and fears.
Want to talk about our plans for the next year what we are going to do different from before and what we are going to keep doing you will have link to a new chat that we are trying out, to play with and a new application
Plans into the future where it is going or seems to be but we never know do we! All we can do is our best and it has to be good enough for ourselves or we go crazier. And all of us survivors know that plans can change, lives can change in a instant. If I have learned anything from my journey of my injury is we cannot count on nothing, we need to love each other but that don't mean those we love won't give up on the new us, and our personal happiness cannot be based on others only ourselves.
Hope to have some visionaries share what this next year is going to bring to them.and our movement, or civil rights movement to exist and to speak for ourselves, taking our voice away from big business.
We seem to live in a society where people expect everything, that is with or with out a brain injury. but when we are forced to do things we do, when are have it done for us we don't. You know the old saying about the hungry man, if you teach him to fish he is fed for life, you give the man the fish he is hungry tomorrow.
As I approach my 8 year mark I still and working on self discovery, I feel like the universe is about ready to open up my destiny, and ill be hosest I don't have the slightest clue what is instore for me. I am ready a self empowered person finally ready for what is to come
The What Ever Show
with Craig Sicilia
Going to do a update on our disability rights show and let you know how court turned out for the family and this time justice won.
Episode of Toms Tech Talk
In so many time it just don't. Residential services for people with disabilities has been bad for many people, but Washington has had and still having on investigations going on several fronts and the December released things were even more corrupt and dangers for us, many flaws on how the state funds designed to serve people with disabilities and with results of focus groups and investigations coming in showing over payments,
misconduct, sexual abuse, neglect by these people who are supposed to be serving us even state employed personal are coming to light and finally our legislators are taking action. We the people with disabilities need to stand together and fight this corrupt status quo no more good old boys get the money and give garbage and mislead people, and start protesting bring light to the dark. This abuse is going on all around the country wasting money we don’t have doing nothing to sustain people with disabilities but actually hurting there long term changes of independence.
Nothing about Us with Out Us
Ever wonder like me why you lived throught the accident, why we didn't pull that trigger, or jump off that roof. even when we have a healthy day sometimes we will still wonder why. What goes through our minds as we contemplate all the different ways and which would be less painful or worry about someone we care about finding our body. Seems like a never ending hampster wheel were on just round and round we go when we fall no body knows. even though lots of good things are happening enough of what we do carries over to the monetizers to profit from what we do, to save us from the people who think they know best. And maybe in the end some will make it through and move one with real lives again forgetting and leaving behind that harsh always lost feeling, and dont look back. Their the smart ones getting out of this business, trillion dollar business and then the medicines is where they get really rich, as your family and friends fall away one by one as you develop old principles that no one has people just come in and out of your life its like we go back 200 years where everything mattered, and we wonder why are we here what purpose of good does any of this have, because not a thing chances just round and round we go in our little wheel, maybe the theroy were already in hell isnt so far off
How we react to change
hosted by Craig Siclia
Life is full of road blocks which are really oppurtunities to create change, change is always easiet for those creating or wanting it. For a survivor change can bring a host of emotions, thoughts and idea's that may not be accurate. Please listen and call in and share how you handle change, how it effects your daily life, and how you best control the change in your life.
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