Why it is difficult for the Facade Soul of a 5th Dimensional to Love itself?

The very first life when we returned to the Human Kingdom carrying both the 45th Dimensional soul aspect and the human soul aspect was frought with misunderstandings that laid the foundation of our entire journey here for eons of time. Once we understand the confusion and misinterpretations, we will do a powerful healing to neutralize the impact that first life had on all of us.