The house ofhealing.com with Ayse Hogan

Ayse Hogan

I started my own bookkeeping practice and with the help of some great people, it got off the ground and now I have a successful practice but I still felt like there was something big missing.  I mean I have a comfortable life, nothing extravagant but comfortable...but one thing I also was still carrying around was the pain of my childhood and the fact that after so many years, I hosted and helped to develop a TV show for the W Network called Maxed Out, which was about helping women with their money...and once we were granted second season, I decided that I wanted to return to my practice.  I was still alone and it was getting unbearable.  It was getting hard to put on the happy face and act like all was right with the world.  My patience was virtually non-existent and I was tired of hiding how I was feeling deep down for everyone else's comfort.  The turning point for me was the death of my father.  He was the reason for much of my pain growing up and yet somehow he was also the only person that I could talk to as an adult, but the pain of everything I had lived was still always there...like a coat that I just couldn't remove, heavy and painful.  

I lived like that for quite some time and 3 years ago, I went to Turkey, where I am from originally, and my cousin is a Reiki Master, and she treats cancer patients, she attuned me to Level 1 and Level 2 Reiki while I was there on vacation and I could instantly feel my energies shifting, and for the better. Once I got home I found a Reiki Master here and did the attunements again and took the full courses I didn't have the time to do on vacation.  It changed my life but I got worse as I was facing everything and as the energies were shifting around and all that I buried was coming to the surface...I was falling into a depression and I didn't know how to stop.