Beaten and desperate, a vision from God led to fear and rebellion. Using God's holy Word, witchcraft was unknowingly used to manipulate a situation in my favor. When that worked, a further abomination was carried out with a ritual.
Every wise woman builds her house: but the foolish plucks it down with her hands. [Prov 14:1]
There is a way that seems right unto a man, but the end thereof are the ways of death. [Prov 14:12]
For that they hated knowledge, and did not choose the fear of the LORD: They would none of My counsel: they despised all My reproof. Therefore shall they eat of the fruit of their own way, and be filled with their own devices. For the turning away of the simple shall slay them, and the prosperity of fools shall destroy them. But whoso hearkens to Me shall dwell safely, and shall be quiet from fear of evil. [Prov 1:29-33]
Why did I fear? Why did I not trust the Lord? Worse yet, why did I not fear the Lord? Fear and unbelief will turn us away from God and cause us to walk right into Satan's domain.
The Lord is not slack concerning His promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering toward us, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance. [2Pet 3:9]