Stop Child Abuse Now (SCAN) - 2646

Tonight's special guest is Kirsten Oliver from Ft Worth, Texas, who has memories of sexual abuse at age of 3 to 8 years old. "I was molested by my mother's best friend's boyfriend," she says. "My mother let this man babysit me. I would numb myself and I was terrorized and disgusted. I would throw up afterwards. I peed my pants a lot." Kirsten was later abused by her stepmother. "I am working through a lot of pain and heartache and loneliness. I started on my healing journey when I was 41 because started coming about the severity of being raped and sexually abused." She goes on, "My little dog helped me a lot and watching Mr. Rogers on TV. I would see sex parties between my mom and her friends. There was violence with guns and physical fighting from different people they would bring in. I saw my mom bust out windows with her fist when she was drunk or high. I felt a lot of anger so when I went to my mother's moms house, I would break her toys." Kirsten explains, "I felt like I was this dirty little disgusting girl. I still cry and cry for that little girl and deal with it by not running away from the pain but continue on my healing journey by dealing with it. I felt real loneliness." She thought she was the only one who went through the sexual abuse. In recovery now, Kirsten's getting better. "I am seeing a trauma based Christian counselor who is spirit filled. I went three times to a women's retreat for women who have been sexually abused and more. I am still feeling apprehensive and feel overwhelmed because I am right on the edge of diving deep into my healing."