Tonight's special guest is Mike Chapman from Wilson, North Carolina, a survivor of childhood sexual abuse (CSA) and trafficking, and a survivor of sexual assault as an adult by clergy, and dealing with all the mess that comes with it, including PTSD, anger, anxiety, codependency, and addictive behaviors. As a young man in college (age 20, but looked like 16 - late bloomer) a Methodist Minister sexually assaulted him. "My mother never wanted children," he says."She had a bad experience with her own mother and did not want to be responsible for other children. My father insisted. So they had 3 children: 2 girls and a boy. I was the youngest. Unknown to my mother, he was a pedophile. This also means that the only reason I was born was to satisfy his pedophilia." As Mike grew, the abuse continued. "Once we got old enough where he lost interest, he left us. My parents separated, then divorced when I was 7 or 8. I had no father figure and a lot of mess. My mother was now a single mother with 3 kids she originally never wanted." That's when the Methodist Minister sexually assaulted him. "When I was 30 (I am in my mid-50s now), I uncovered repressed memories of being sexually abused by my father at age 3. Last year (2019) I sought out additional therapy, including PTSD therapy. We ended up uncovering even more repressed memories, including the fact that I was trafficked by my father to other men, and that the abuse did not actually begin at age 3 but started much earlier - when I was an infant, about 7 months old. The trafficking abuse continued until age 8 (when I 'aged out')."