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I know that you are interested in me but I simply can’t go there because I’m already cheating on my man with my man.

Words I had to say to someone today with ease by the way. I never knew that avoiding temptation would be this easy nor that love could be this hard and yet I’m still so fascinated with the idea of being “in-love”. Yes, it’s definitely the thrill of falling that I’m addicted to (hoping not to crash and burn). But what happens in a marriage when you get bored, tired, fat, and predictable?

Today I woke up with the usual blank expression on my face and hair half way crazy after an awesome night with my man… just us two. Loving every minute of each other and trying desperately not to fall asleep after 3 glasses of wine.  Oh boy , I can feel my body drifting off into one of those deep sleeps when I hear my hubby say the words I’m so used to hearing after 9:30pm:

Damion: “Are you sleeping?”.

Me: “No, no Dee. I’m up, I’m up”, I quickly answered, but of course I was.

Time to fake like I’m awake, I perked up so it appeared as if was up, eyes wide opened as if a dear caught in headlights, half awake, half asleep. Damion takes another look into the room where all the kids are fast asleep and just when I thought the night couldn’t get any better, he picks me up from the couch and kisses me ever so gently and says, “I love you when you snore”.

Me: “Say whaaaaaat? I do not snore. Im simply reacting to how boring this movie is”

I still thinks he’s lying to me but as he gently kissed me, well, lets just say that once again I wasn’t pissed off that he got me up (wink wink).  We laughed and talked about our lives and how far we’ve come. And with all that said, I began to understand again why I love this man so. The man that took care of me while I was on full time bedrest in the hospital throughout all 3 of my pregnancies. How he always seems to have an optimistic outlook despite my harsh and often tragic view of things. Gosh, it’s been a long, hard, fun, crazy, exciting 7 years of marital bliss. And yes, we’ve struggled, cried, and often times wanted to kill each other but life is a funny thing isn’t it? This morning I woke up with more than a smile on my face but happiness in my heart.

We’ve come a long way baby and overcame so much over the years financially and emotionally but you’ve always loved and accepted all of me. The me that most don’t ever see. The true, unadulterated, sensitive, impulsive, unapologetic me and despite it all, you still love ME!  Gotta pick up some more wine.

All my love,

Rhea Brown

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