Monday, August 10, 2009 7:27:49 PM I just can't seem to wrap my head around the whole searching for love thing. I mean whenever you have that urge to be in a relationship it always seems like there is no one decent to choose from. Yet when you're having that moment where you want to be strong and independent and you don't want to be in a relationship then everyone seems to suddenly be interested. It seems to me that today's generation of singles are getting more and more interested in people that are secure. Financially secure I should say....not everyone gets to really see a persons true mental state until they have already established a deep connection with them. Many people wish to have a partner that has a stable mind but most people have some part of their mental state that isn't quite right. I keep telling myself that I've given up on the search knowing that I can't. However I have come to the conclusion that I should only date for long term. Whether or not that actually happens depends on me and the people I meet....I just wish that the people that I had been interested in for long term were just as interested in something serious with me. But that's life for ya...doesn't always work out the way that you want it to, It's just hard when you've become emotionally attached to someone. Just when you think that you've gotten over some one.....the feelings seems to arise again. Just when you find someone who you think is worth your time you become paralyzed by the old feelings that you had for that previous person. you try your hardest not to allow the insecurities that was in your previous relationship travel into the new one.Yet some how it still happens....if you're strong you're able to keep those feelings in the past...yet if you're weak those feelings leak into the new connection and you find yourself treating every situation as if you were dealing with the one that came before....I wish that there was some type of machine that could suck out all the feelings that you had for that previous person so that you could move on and be happy. But there is no such machine...and so you have to go through life continuing to remember the pain and guilt of the one that didn't work even when you really wanted it to.....so why search for love...it never seems to end well...