RumRadio Mike V was hopeless and hapless , now on fire and matchless.

My name is Mike V. and What I Believe is Very Simple

The universe is not some biological primordial spew. I believe that the essence of me is not just a conglomeration of cells.

I have a soul and a purpose! I believe in a creative intelligence, but words really can not describe the

Power I feel in my life now. I believe GOD is just starting his work with me.

After going to recovery houses, meetings, and flirting with the fellowship for

years, going in and out, spewing the same stuff about what was wrong with

Everything...especially AA, and its followers...I would grab the Big Book and cross any

Reference to "He" or "God". I really had a disdain for Christianity and felt A.A was a Christian program in disguise of something else. I thought “I can do it my way!!!”

Once again, I found myself in a hotel room with a woman I had grown fond of. I

simply could not get drunk or high enough. I was extremely cognizant and began to have

eelings of Jim Morrison’s "The End".

We went to get more booze and drugs, and while I sat there something came over me, telling me to leave. So I left, went back to the hotel and crashed. I woke up the next morning, with the sun in my face and a feeling of hopelessness and impending doom!

Then all of a sudden, I had a desire to live! I saw how everything I had done to

prove myself not an alcoholic and an addict had failed. I felt the only way I would be rid of the obsession would be to find a sufficient substitute. So, I said to myself "I will go back to A.A. and give it it an honest attempt. If that doesn't work then I guess I was not meant to be clean, sober, or alive”.

I came back to A.A.