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24 years ago a woman would be held at gun point to the belly. She would also be shot at while leaving in a taxi cab and have bullet holes placed into couches all while being pregnant with her first son, me. The youngest memory I have is at the age of 4, watching my mother being mistreated by my father. It was hard growing up, being given treatment for his wrong doings... I grew up empty, never being conscious or aware of my decisions in my youth or teen years. Becoming of knowledge became a natural occurrence that I can't even explain, all thanks go to God however. God wasn't always there in my perspective and behaviors. Because I was without proper guidance, I guided myself to improper acts of self and others. Joining gangs, drinking, smoking and wanting nothing better of myself in Gods Grace. In the coming years, there would be many mistakes that wouldn't lead me to God just as yet. God eventually revealed himself, when I needed him most, though he revealed himself in private with no circumstance to claim his being there - but, his being there was based on my current circumstance in making wrong decisions. It was literally an event of waking up the next morning and changing my life. I am thankful for the guidance I received from others before my conversion. I've spent allot of time watching over my siblings, helping out raise a family that wasn't mine, the responsibility I felt I shouldn't have. As I matured, those experiences have helped me become stronger in God. Though I don't have kids, I pray for the woman who I am to be blessed with to create a loving and God fearing family with. Until then, I refrain from ungodly behavior and people. Doing my hardest to maintain a continuing faith and love for God. Building on my career, and bettering myself for the woman he has prepared me for. As a better listener, man, protector, comfort and companion.