Kween Kiwi  

I am having FUN, SON! These past few weeks have been a cool roller coaster ride. The ups and downs have been life-changing. I swear it...I am not exaggerating. I have spoken before on my shyness and stage fright. How hard it has been for me to step up and be on the air KNOWING people are listening. Knowing that my speech, personality, views and style are under scrutiny is unbearable and heart-wrenching to me. Yet, I find myself opening up and emerging from a life long shell of fear and introversion.

That roller coaster ride includes the fear of messing up. The love of people. The joy of people's response. The confusion of being put on the spot (in SO many ways). The frustration for when things go awry...and back to the fear of messing up! LOL

Co-hosting to me in the beginning was just something to do. Mr. Chap asked me to be his co-host and before the fear of it could settle in, I said yes. I know how much he loves this stuff and I had enjoyed a brief stint at co-host status on Mahogany Dymond's show (due for return in June) I liked it, but I never had responsibilities that went past being myself and showing up. With this show, I have input and am expected to deliver ideas from time to time, as well as filling in as Mr. Chap's pinch hitter.

I have to thank, Chap for helping me with my fears. Telling me over and over that I could do this. Thanks to Ebony Eyes for helping me when I had to go on without "The Chap" a few times...she's been a dear about it. I want to thank Mahogany for asking me to be a part of her show before her hiatus and allowing me a segment, which has become one of my signature moments, "Ask Kiwi". Thanks to all the people who I've invited and who have come through for a listen...all to become as addicted to this experience as I have become.

Never know...maybe one day, you all may see me with my own show. ("The Kweendom" has a nice ring to it!) LOL