Katy Manna  

In April it will be two years since I had my BIG calling. That was when the two by four that had been hitting me steadily in the head decided to give a huge "WHACK!" on the head. It was time for me to PAY ATTENTION.
I had been paying attention to a large degree but if it was thinking outside of the box of my programming then it took a little longer. I had left where I was working, created a skin care and makeup line and even signed a lease for a space for my Make Up Expert business. When the lease fell through and some other things started falling apart, I knew to pause. If there is nothing else that I have learned this time around in earth school it is this, WHEN IT SEEMS THAT EVERYTHING IS FALLING APART, IT IS REALLY FALLING TOGETHER.
So I asked, "What the H*LL is this about?" And when we ask, the answer comes.
There was a very clear moment that all the signs that had piled up finally came to me collectively, hence, the "WHACK".
That was when I broke the news slowly to my partner at the time that his dead brother wanted me to tell him some things about his passing. I also told this poor man who had eyes like a deer in head lights that this spiritual path I had been on for so long was now ready to take center stage in my life. No more was I wanting to paint peoples faces a variety of colors. I wanted to help them paint their lives a variety of colors. I was ready to do the work that my soul had signed up for. I was rolling up my sleeves, torch in hand and was walking this path, with or without him.
He stayed for a little while, but it didn't take long that his desire to be supportive died out.  I knew that I was up against losing him and I knew that he resented that my love for myself and my soul would win over my love for him.
I find myself in a similar place again when the "WHACK" came. This time, I am happily single and have a lot going for me. Yes, I have been able to help people and will continue to do so. I also know that I am being called to move even deeper. Some of the directions I am receiving this time are not logical at all and that is 6th sensory living.
I know without a doubt that if I was given this kind of direction two years ago I would have hid under my covers. I know that baby steps are the best way to go with some things so that my human fear does not sabotage what I am here to do.
I want to be who I am more than I want anything in the world. I want to help change peoples lives in ways that sometimes cause other people to feel uncomfortable.
In a world that is focused on what seems logical and tangible I might even seem rebellious. I guess I am just very willing to live in full faith that I came here with everything I need and that I will always be cared for. And yes, sometimes I do get scared. But I do my best to behave in ways to speak FAITH. That is 6th sensory living. When we can allow our spirit to take control and have more power then our ego. Making sense is a place in the "ego".
I don't think there is anything wrong with ego either. That is where our personalities are. I like my personality. But what I love more is waking up in the morning with a smile because I know that I will take direct directions from my spirit who is in constant contact with God and because of that I know I am always okay. That is 6th sensory living, living from that place of conscious contact and not needing everything to look perfect and linear. There is nothing wrong with living that way. But for me, living that way feels like a suffocating prison, it does not work for me. I live in faith and everything seems to work out better and better each time.
Everything is falling together just right.