karen4thefuture  

After having answered "a call" to quit my stressful job and move to a new state, I now find myself "in the desert" literally and so drawn to defining my spirituality and sixth senses.  I appreciate this time to define and find myself, but find that if I don't obtain sustainable income soon, will be living on the streets.  Was this meant to be?  I am drawn, daily, to spiritual talk radio shows (Hay House and here) and cry at the readings that I hear.  I need to work for income, but hate the idea of leaving this enlightenment I am so drawn to.  So I am keeping employment from finding me!  Ugh!

On a positive note, I am manifesting positives in my life.  I paid my rent for February and the office manager said that I had a huge credit on my account!  I went into the cell phone provider to ask a question and was told the same thing - big credit!  I have had gifts come in the mail and money come in the mail.  I have positive manifesting occuring but not the income that would allow me to stay connected with my sixth senses and spirituality during the day.  I feel a deep fear that if I "go to work" then I will, again, lose this vital connection to Spirit.  I don't want that connection severed, or hidden, again.  It has come forward many times over the years, just to be pushed aside and buried because I "had to provide" for my families survival.

What do I do?