Get Real With Loving  

So like my name is loving and I am a fem. I am not your typical fem though so please don’t try to group me and my mind with other “femmes”. I’m original. Anyways, as a Femme, I feel that the word love means to share an unbreakable bond with someone who you feel most connected to. Someone who, outside of family and friends, see’s you in a different, brighter light and loves you because of what they see. Not the mere changeable outer being, but the hidden inner person you are. Many times in my past, I’ve fallen for what I thought was love and given everything (and I do mean EVERYTHING) to the one whom I thought I loved….Only to faced with the harsh reality of that, what I was feeling for that person, was only an attraction to the idea of no longer being single. When asked, “Why do you love her?” I simply listed the physical or material. Nothing emotional. Then the one time that I did find true and unconditional love, I ran from it. Too afraid that I wasn’t meant to love someone as special as her. Looking back on it, I messed up that relationship because I simply never knew how to love. I was never showed how and I never had anyone willing to take the time to show me. I believe we as femmes are so hooked on what we THINK we want, but really, are too afraid of what we ask for. We claim we want a stud that is independent, caring, trustful, honest, and is able to love us for who we are….not what we have. (I.e. a vagina). But then when that stud comes along, we shy away from them and go for the next chick. Those are usually the same studs that are under cover bums and good for nothing. Yet and still, we stay with them and get played. I don’t know about ya’ll ladies, but I’ve learned from my mistakes….I want a better stud….Better than my past and greater than my dream stud….--->Loving<---

Now I’ll pass the blog to my sweetie Chaos. *hands over the mic*

4 letters
... l o v e
honest and true
hurt you, i'll never do
not like we're gettin married, but i vow this to you
each day i wake up new
ready and willing to commit to you
no lie its you that im into

Ok so I too am not your average individual nor am I your average stud. But here we go… Ok so love is like the one thing that we all need to get by in life. Love comes with a relationship and "relationships are inevitably a series of compromises.. how much of ourselves should we be willing to sacrifice for the other person before the art of comprise...becomes compromising". I think most studs see love as something that is tangible, like if we tell you we love you every once in a blue moon it’s cool. But I think if you love someone you will show them like tell them. Sex is not how you show your girl you love her. I too was once in a relationship that I thought was going to last FOREVER cuz I was so far gone over her. But she brought so much pain from her PAST and it made it hard for me. I gave her my ALL and she left me high and dry. Then there were the femmes that I did the same to. But they think we’re all heartless, so they turn to femmes. Some femmes can be as shallow as they expect us not to be.The aftermath, a fem with a broken heart, hating and despising everything that remotely resembles their ex. Let’s do better..

live for the moments u can't put into words
make mistakes everyday until u grow
listen to your heartbeat
it tells you just what u need to know
if it skips..
they might be the one
..or u might need to get another 1
heart that is
damaged hearts can only bleed for so long
drained they become
long slow drawn out leaks
till you can't stand strong on your own 2 feet
you find yourself crying
..but externally you never weap
you question every moment
but your story is your own
your journey is the path only you can follow
destination unknown
freedom certain
relax
breathe easy
you weren't really broken
--->Chaos<---
(a.k.a Lanae)

--->Loving<---©
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