Eyes of Hope  

I sit here as an empty shell
I smile, so it isn't easy to tell.
I may tell you different, but I'm not feeling well
I feel like a salesman with nothing to sell

This feeling of alone consumes my mind
It unties every knot and releases all bind
I try to be nice, I try to be kind
But no one is leading, and I'm deaf and blind

My heart is aching, my emotions just melt
I'd never tell you it's something I've felt.
If I were another, I would've just dealt
But I'm so weak now, just skin off my pelt.

This sadness washes over days and days
And I try to make it seem I'm not phased
Once I was excited, but I'm no longer amazed
It's like earning a prize, without any praise

I'm sick of my body, I'm sick of my thoughts
I'm sick of being told what I aught to and naught.
I'm just a story,, with no end or plot
And I really just wish, I was something I'm not.