She (revisited)

 
You walked hard into it
Prepared for anything
It was you who said that
Truth . . . you live your life that way
Hard, fierce and unaffected
Your armor against the pain
   
What a way to live, baby
Always tempering the best times
By preparing for the worst
And you know what?
It's not a matter of readiness at all
More like terror at being caught off guard
It saddens me 
To think you may never see this
   
So you're still safe in that shell, protected
But what that shell protects
It can also blind
Maybe that's why the soft things of life
No longer exist for you
And all you can do about love, baby
Is talk about it, fear it, and run from it
Never feel it
   
Lover, you beg to be touched
So you might prove
That you cannot be touched
You guard your heart with busy-ness
And I can't see you anymore
You have no more time for moments
Or the chances of miracles
That are the heartbeat
The very center of life
And as far as I can tell
It's you who no longer exists
Whether you are ready or not
   
Girl, you confuse wanting with needing
What's so wrong with needing, anyway?
It really is a pure, human trait
No big deal, really
Until you deny it so much
It festers into something poisonous
Something like you
   
Yeah, you call it freedom
I call it a damn shame
When a person won't believe
Says No! I don't need!
To take that chance
And yeah, you're right
One person can dance
But when two move as one
The dance becomes something larger
Dancers shift into a greater state

Harmony is what it's about
And a dance like that, babe
Make the whole world ring
Just like a bell
 
 
for kelly
22 August, 1995
woodclif