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    Today, I personally underwent a most wonderful example of pointless, stupid drama. A person, let's call them Jarod, with whom I have had intimate relations with was told by a perfect stranger online that I had given up a rather embarrassing intimate detail about them. When I asked who this person was, they sent a picture and turns out, I'd never seen or talked to this person in my life.
    My best guess, is that it is my psychotic, crackhead ex... who... apparently being out of rehab, has nothing better to do than try and cause difficulty for me.
    Problem was, Jarod jumped to conclusions and assumed that I was telling everyone and their mother about this... embarrassing little detail. This simply is not true.
    There was a point, a year or so ago, where I was intensely angry with Jarod; and did so happen to share this intimate detail with a close friend and with my then lover, the psychotic crackhead. And back then, although I certainly shouldn't have been talking about it... I did so... Jarod was a jerk, but that doesn't mean that I needed to degrade myself by stooping to the level of common gossip to alleviate my frustrations.
    On the one hand, I am frustrated and angry because... I feel as though one moment of weakness on my part is being blown way out of proportion on behalf of someone's insecurities... on the other hand, I believe it's just karma. It's just what I deserve.
    At the time, I didn't care. I figured if it came out to somebody someday, it is what Jarod deserved. BUT... things change... and I'm not so angry at him anymore... and I really don't think he deserves that anymore.
    And so... I must apologize... to him... and to myself... for what has happened due to my loose mouth.
    Let this be a lesson to everyone out there that... regardless of how many good intentions you may have adopted recently... mistakes and misdeeds from YEARS ago can creep back up on you and demand their consequences... and it is important that you own up to them... for you are accountable for who you used to be just as much as who you are now... and who you are now... hopefully... is willing to admit that to itself.